Well, I am back
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I would say I was beign tested big time. See I had gotten a pretty bad treament from one of the ladies. being new at the church, and not knowing that she is that way, and taking a few steps back I was able to see things a little better. But in truth, she is the main reason why I didnt want to do at all! She wa put incharge over a hugs part of this and it was way over her head, but even thought all of the bad things on her part, and my note wanting to go because of her, she did pretty good in a few parts and it made me happen and exsited for her. I was left marvaling over G-ds grace with all of us ladies this weekend, her and i both! It seems through the masses, treatment, and lots of us not wanting to be their but coming anyways. G-d was working on all of us and it was like a = work of art. The theem it seemed this weekend was about was G-d's excellence in our lives. We had to take a hard look at ourselves, not others and find it their. Many just wasnt strong enough to look at themselves, as if it would be a sin to boast, or brag, feeling it was hard to find that G-d goodness with-in! What a trick saten has played on all g-ds children to make us feel it would be sin to look at where the hand of G-d is in our own lives. So many of them where able to only bring themselves to only see it in another lady for one reason or another. Then because it wasnt going all that well, the lady I had the struggle with wanted to end it. but get this....I stood up and said not good enough. we have to big up this hard thing and boldly take a look in the mirror, and see the hand of G-d there. I then when into one of my stories....you know me ...G-ds thing he has told me to do many times. I after than, I put up a mirror infront of them telling them all each on, that even the smallest things with in each of use are god's excellence in our lives!
See I went there feeling so like a fish out of water. I was like what do I sing, what do I say, and G-d told me that he will take care of it. I got there. Started of and the women I was struggling with, did want of there things where she was trying to take control over me and what I was to play, when and how load. You all would have been proud of me, I didnt give in to her control, did my thing and moved on with what G-d set infront of me. I was exsited about it.
do you all remember my yellow butterfly story I told on the CF site. I seen four of them right behind the ladies as I started off after what the lady did, and I was filled with so much peace. I knew G-d was there with me and I was going to be just find. So "MY thing" flowwed through me , and I was able to sing and all that, even talking and looking up songs they wanted to hear so ever one had a little pit of everything they wanted, and the women was no longer a struggle and I was even able to injoy being around her. Sweet hu!?
G-d good "all the time". amen!!!
I was asked for s few stories to be told from my life from the lady that was heading up all of this. How I first meet my hubby, about the story of my yellow butterfullies and why I love them so much. And get this. there was a botanist there that talked about butterflies. She said that she will bring some of that to church for my daughter that is being home schooled to help me out. Sweet!
I got to share a a room with a lady how's parents took foster kids in when she was growing up, and she had to turn in one of her adoptive brothers in being a rapeing another child, she found out, found the info, and even with an press charges against him. She loves him, wow...but didnt want him to harm anyone else either, what a strong women!!! :17178:Angrying???
She was so nice to me, and we talked about our lives together, staying up all night.
many of the women there had thyroid proublems too, and we talked some about the things I knew about it all. They had good food there for me too...making it easy to be a good girl. I swammed and slept so hard on saterday, was so good!
Then to top this weekend off, I got to drive home, and to shopping and out to eat with the paster's wife, just me and her. That was so very very nice. We talked about some many things. I had been saving up money for that shopping and we had been talking about doing that for a few months but didnt have a chance to do it as of yet. I had never been around anyone that was so nice to me, our for me and pulling for me to have nice things, and out that little green man popping up, and kills the joy our of it all!
Got there, and get what, she found a vac for me with a yellow butter flow on it...really...and everywhere we went where where seeing butterflys....and oh get this, the shalter program for women that my hubby and I was asked to be partents, they want us to be on the board of treasties....really!!!
and their logo,
butterflies!!!
It was a not just a g-d moment, but a G-d weekent!!!
Tahnks very one for praying for me....and that jeep of ours. I went out there where he was working on it....and then it started right up, and I did say maybe G-d didnt want me to go...
but he did, and my hubby laughed at me, and said I guess you will be going anyways, like it our not.
Oh, yea...I had the best shopping time too, to the best prices....like dress 50% OFF AND 70% AND ... that all my new clothes are going to be great to keep me cool, and they are modest too...a hard find now a days for my size an all. I had a cart full and stuff that was to try on...and even got three shows...I have never had three pers of shoes before. and two purses to do with the shoes and the 7 dress I have never had. all pretty, like they where made for me, and long ones too. I was even able to get me a bathing suit too. I was able to find another par of shorts for my child...3 dollers....sweet! and some other suff she had been wanting for a long time, in her fav colors. She screamed when I handed her her bag. I had the hardest time not thinking and missing my girl, and hubby...hard!
But I was told to stop talking about it because I was saying how much I wished my daughter could be there, because of how much I knew she would like it all. and they all kept saying, this week end it for you, the reason it all was set up was just for us ladies. NO children, no hubbies! The best thing for me.
Get this when I came home, they even cleaned the kitchen up, cabnets and floors
I was so floored, see all the women where talking about how much the all wished something would be done at their house when they would get home, for those the wished with do that kind of act of love to them, I though...nope not mine! and would just keep my mouth shut too
....but they did. I though....wow it was mine that did clean up, my child and hubby.
I have a pretty bad left over sun burn even though I but lots of sun block on too. And the ladies put it on me, trying to take care of me even me, just incase it wasnt enough...even that was enough....But it is all good! Ok. I have to stop and close this up...got work to do.
But I wanted to take the time to write as much down as I could so you all could feel like you where here with me. They are talking about doing this again something. I would love, love, love to get one of you women on this forum here, so come down and be with me on the next one. I will post and tell when the next date was. and G-d will take care of the money part of it, just like he always has done...so we all can vote for what one will come down here and go with me. Sweet!
Thanks for the prayer covering...I have more to post about weekend too...but this will be enough for now!
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